The tears fall

It has been a little over a month since the last time I really saw you. The last perfect moment we had together has now been tainted by fragments of the truth. The truth of what you really say and of where you really went. I was content in letting you walk away to better yourself and your life. I understood the need to take time to learn new things and find your path. But you gave me some sort of false hope that I'd be there at least in your mind somewhere. Somehow, I thought you'd remember me. I knew I wouldn't get much more time with you, but you made me believe it was a good life decision for you. And I was proud of you.

But you vanished into thin air. And I tried to chase you as best as I could without making you feel like I was suffocating you. Without making me look vulnerable and desperate. All I asked for was a single letter. One little note. Just a call. A cigarette. I didn't ask for much of your time. I accepted that you were busy. I stupidly accepted your half promise of maybe once in a month or two. I wasn't even worth that...

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

You weren't there to watch me as I fell. To be broken in Violet's arms. Screaming and bleeding and breaking. You weren't there to hear me cry out, begging for this to stop. You weren't there a lot of the times I really needed you, now that I think about it. I would've stood behind you for anything. I sacrificed a lot of my own time for you, even when I was busy. But you hardly sacrifice one word. And when I heard a piece of truth from your own mouth that I wasn't supposed to, I felt my heart burn. But I smiled.

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

But Violet was. As she didn't want to see me like that. She intervened and tried to help me but talking to you. She stands up for you, you know? Keeping me hanging on, when I've lost the small sparks of hope you throw to me. You tell her that you do, in fact, love me. That you do miss me. In fact, you would text me randomly. Obscene things. Things that made me think that things could go back to the way they were. But I wouldn't hear from you for days. You stopped even responding like you once used to. Now, I get nothing. Just cold, confusing silence. You didn't even tell me...

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

I had one last amazing night with you before you disappeared for a month. We laughed. We talked. Everything. Now, the last moment I have with you is a hug that I didn't want because of the knife you left in my side. I pretend not to care, especially when there are others. I saw how close you were to your...friends. How much time you give everyone but me...

And I'm really hurt. And I'm crying more than I have in a very long time. Silently, my tears are falling down my face as I listen to these words, describing how I truly feel now. I couldn't have said them anymore perfectly. You've created a void in my heart and placed your old loneliness there for safe keeping...

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere I would've followed you (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
Say something, I'm giving up on you

Right now, my friend, you still have a chance to fix all this. Change my mind, before my heart's too broken to let you back into my life....but if there's even a bit of emotion left over for me...just...say something...


 Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something...


I miss you, love....

Just me